finding the words....

Who knew moving  through contrast and lightness and color would help evoke a life that feels good. Just like the picture we take and then “photoshop” in the amateur iPhoto style of changing the contrast, brightness or being able to turn it into black and whiteness, we go through life. We are in reality before we put those filters on or we put the filters on and see what we want to be or turn it into something that camouflages the realness of who we are but little do we know we can’t cover up the realness of who we are because it is always there it never goes away no matter how hard you wish it you are still here and the question is who are you really? You are beautiful.

That was a mouthful and needs some explaining. Not that you should have to explain yourself but  in this case it helps ME get clarity for us! I was talking to a friend about my moms cancer journey and my cancer journey and all the ups n down and conventional vs. traditional medicine and quality of life and emotions and how all of it has been a learning process and expansion process like all the other contrast in my life. I guess this time I just know I am in contrast and that it is helping me and the outcome will be positive. Just like the photos we see on Facebook or Instagram or Twitter or Snapchat that are filtered we often “camouflage” our life and our SELF. Why? My opinion is just because we haven’t found the words , thoughts, and beliefs to express our most natural self. Why words? Because we have thought and thought rules our minds and  can essentially control us whether we like it or not until we learn otherwise.​

If we can just recognize that the non filtered version is sooooo beautiful! We see our flaws and others see something very different. Why is that? We speak something and someone’s interpretation can be drastically different, why? We listen and can hear our version so clearly yet fail to listen and live through what the other person is expressing or feeling, why? A better question than WHY might be how can I slow down, turn off my own personal thoughts and feelings, just be present, listen to the words, not judge, no criticism or reaction about what the “right “ answer is that is yours, just let the other person be, not take anything personal, not come to any conclusion about what we “think” is what they meant, and just let it be and move forward and leave it in the past like a movie that played and is over? I dunno. It takes practice is all I can say. I hope I got it better this time around. So if I haven’t told you lately, I love you. I hope you all can hear me and I hope we are all kosher and that life CAN be a bowlful of cherries!

I am hoping to be inspired and able to find the courage and the words soon.  I am moving towards the real and authentic me so I CAN be me in hopes that I will feel good and be able to express to all what it is that I mean and BE Who I truly am. Life is many journeys. Each journey rich with it's own purpose. Each purpose closer to finding and living the most authentic you. I hope I can say to all what I really mean before we meet again. I hope you can say what you really mean when we meet again. My light is your light and I would gladly bask in the light together until we feel complete bliss cuz that is what we are meant to do. Cheers my friends and cheers to many beams of light.

Thx for listening-

​Tami xo