A self Journey through dealing with Cancer and how it can Impact your LIFE positively.
Under the Influence… was the catch phrase at the seminar I attended this weekend. Meaning… what is your mind and body under the influence of at every moment in time. For me this is pretty impactful and makes total sense on my self-healing journey. It explains many things that I was thinking but did not fully understand it’s connection. I give you an example… you watch reality TV… you go to bed and see what you dream or have nightmares about and how you feel when you wake up the next morning. Another example… you meditate or listen to affirmations before you go to bed and see what kind of dreams you have… wake up the next morning and see how you feel different?! Another example… you go to a family party and socialize and feel connected and loved and supported and fulfilled… see how you feel later that day. And another example… you stay at home dwelling about what you were mad about earlier that day… see how everything spirals into mishaps and undesirable things and circumstances and the car in your way and your lateness to your next appointment and your stressed out feeling and your anxiety. Or a more inner-look at your self Example could be… you drink excessively one night and wake up the next morning feeling depressed OR you partied and had a couple drinks and spent most of the time getting to know about people better and you woke up feeling great and refreshed and fulfilled. Another inner-look Example could be… you had an argument with a special someone and you feel bad about it and never talk about it again…. Or you had an argument with a special someone and end up talking it out in a more reasonable manner and feel good about everything again.
Perhaps it doesn’t make too much sense and perhaps I am not saying it in a way that resonates with you yet. I think the main thought is behind what feels good and what feels bad and going with what feels good majority of the time. Basically giving a shit about your feelings and trying to lean into what feels good and push your self to get there with yourself. If that involves apologizing or talking things out or removing yourself from a certain environment or changing jobs or adjusting your own beliefs and perceptions… why not do it? A little shift in the way you maneuver yourself through life could be the exact game changer you need to be that much happier or to get yourself out of what feels not so good. It almost always goes back to YOU and how YOU choose to handle YOU. It rarely and almost NEVER is about the other person, place, or thing. You have lived how many years? That means those years of life have marinated into your brain and body BUT your soul is REALLY looking out for you and looking at everything with love and THAT is the real YOU! We are under the influence at all times and if we put ourselves under the influence of our soul which is pure positive energy life changes. It is easier. It is more fulfilling. It is happy. There is something to be said about being disconnected or connected from yourself. Even as I type this my mouse battery keeps going out and says “connection lost”. A purrfect example of what happens to us in general. We get disconnected or “out of alignment” from our soul and life doesn’t feel good. We have connection and are in alignment and we feel good. The question is how to be connected and stay in alignment….
I don’t have a magic pill answer But I do know that the combination of meditation, letting go of past, letting go of past beliefs and perceptions, starting each day with positive words or positive thoughts and ideas, going with the flow and creating a great day rather than reacting to everything, seeing the good in people rather than dislikes or mistakes, talking to people in general rather than texting or emailing, trying anything that is new, approaching situations with love, and taking time to enjoy the day and myself and some company, all together have made a world of difference. I am now under the influence of love and it feels really great. I am connected and turned on. Life is good. Life is about being a creator. Life is expanding.
Under the influence of love at all times doesn’t not eliminate contrast. The contrast that still exists is there for a reason and I have accepted that because it is what pushes us to what we really desire and what feels good. It is a part of life. I like to educate and learn and listen and it has been a big part of my “under the influence” BUT I am also learning that is part of the PAST and that is also what letting go encapsulates. So to focus on the past is to be under the influence of the past and is not reality because we are in the here and now. We CAN now be under the influence of a new day and a new thought or we can CHOOSE to go back to yesterday. I choose today and right now. I choose to be under the influence of my right now, not the past.
We can also be under the influence of what others think. If I choose to care about what others think about me or what I think they think about me then I am not living authentically. I am not being my true self and expressing or creating in the ways that feel good. This subject was a bit tricky for me to grasp and I am still working out the kinks BUT it is very true. Remember letting go? Well this is a part of it. Think about what you have been taught, what your parents said, what teachers told you, how the loves of your life impacted your thoughts about yourself, how people in general have words that get stuck in our brains and then we dictate our selves based on these ideas? When does just thinking for ourselves come in to play? Why do we hang on to words people say? In fact, when reading this right now I challenge you to just take it in THEN come up with your own ideas on how it is applicable to you and take from it what could potentially feel good on you. You know yourself best and what is good for you might not be good for me. So you decide. Be your own best friend and an advocate for yourself.
Also as I write this my cat is incessantly pawing at me and running around the house and trying to get my attention. He does this often . I think he is my lesson in depending on another person for love and attention. Under the influence of “dependency” leads to not believing in yourself and it is NOT very helpful. In fact it also causes resentment because that other person is eventually gonna do something that displeases you. Looking to a person for love and approval can be a dangerous route unless you already love your self immensely and are not depending on them to bring you up, you are simply enjoying their love. Notes taken. I believe it is the greatest gift to get “right” with your self and love your self first and foremost so you THEN have “good stuff” to give other people. Aha! Notes taken again. You mean be happy with your self and love your self first then you might attract others who also do the same thing? Yes! Good stuff. Looking for love in all the wrong places was a familiar song that rang through my brain BUT I finally get it.. love your self first then you won’t even be singing this song. This does not mean to scrap all the people in your life it means that even person is doing the best they can at every moment in time. It means that this is all part of the journey. The journey to be under the influence of your self in love with yourself. How conceited and selfish is that? But it’s ok. You MUST! If you don’t love your self then nobody else truly can love you either because you are not being your true authentic self. So let’s stay connected and under the influence of love, which is SELF, which is SOUL, which is SPIRIT, which is GOD, which is Pure Positive Energy, which is Source, whatever you call it, it’s all the same. We are all one, under the influence.
here are some of the things i have been "under the influence" of the past couple years! thanks to all! i love my life!
As always, thanks for reading and listening.