Light up the chronic and let the angels speak…

There is much to be said about peace and quiet. Ironically, silence can be deafening. If there is one thing I know for sure that I have gained the past 4 years, it is a sense of who I am, what I am, and sometimes just not knowing. The magic trick has been training my mind to completely blank out. To reach that shut off mode, like when you meditate. The other magic trick has been to actually stay in that zone amidst chaos and to milk it when you are vibrating on a high and sunshiny mode. Then, you know you might be on to something new for yourself.  What is that something? It kinda feels like the angels speaking out loud and you feel like you hear and see a message loud and clear. It is a peaceful and quiet message. However, it is so big that it seems and feels loud and overpowers everything going on around you and within you. I guess you could call this being in alignment according to the law of attraction. It sometimes feels very emotional I think because when you are new at seeing and discovering and hearing in a different way it is really overwhelming. It changes you every single time.


It can be as chronic as a human disease. So I will let it be chronic. I love chronic. Darkness to lightness is needed to transform and often times leads us to where we want to be and who we want to be. I am a writer and I love metaphors and simile’s and antonyms AND being grammatically incorrect. I also LOVE run-on sentences! SO, here is a BIG analytical one for you…  If darkness is part of our existence just like dark starry nights, and lightness is part of our life like warm sunshiny days, then why can’t we all just get along and be happy? Why can’t we all just accept life and ourselves and keep it moving? Why? OH yeah, there is that 1 little thing called being a human. We have a brain and emotions and the world kicks in and we pay attention to everything and everyone around us and think THAT is our reality. Sorry but not sorry to say THAT is merely a second of your life then it is over. Oh yeah, THEN perception kicks in and we all have debates and turmoil kicks in and opinions and criticisms and more emotions and blah blah blah. Waaaahhhhh , my head is spinning, is yours???


WE create our own reality. WE have the power to create what is. WE can simply close our eyes and be in another reality that we create. It really is that easy. Easy but not easy I get it. It takes repetitious time just like you would try to exercise a few times a week. It takes believing in what you are doing? It takes not caring about what other people are saying and doing? It takes loving humans AND spirit so deeply that you appreciate what everyone is doing simultaneously just to be here on earth and just to experience and live on the leading edge every moment in time? It takes forming NO opinion and just listening and observing and shutting up for some amount of time? It is believing and knowing that everything is ok? It is letting your life come to a halt and just letting things be? It is letting the connection between human and spirit exist?


Chronic and angels in the same sentence just seems wrong but I love it and am going to make it a new way of thinking! It is a positive outlook. A humanistic view of chronic is bad and gloomy and dark and death and someone who is bad cuz they smoke weed… laughing… really I am. This darkness has got to work in a positive way for me and us so I am declaring a light up the chronic and let the angels speak democracy. A democracy that can lead with a republican-angelistic type view and a liberal-type physical approach to instituting peace and quiet on this earth for all humans right here right now. Why not? This political approach I am just using as an antonym so if you declare a political view please don’t get your undies in a bunchie. If you find yourself getting agitated well then just light up in 2020 cuz you will finally be able to go buy some weed legally in Ch-town people. I am an advocate for cannibus. Just like Kat Williams says, smoke some weed and just see how it changes your life to.... f+++it......for real, he wasn’t lying. We all get wadded up in a ball somehow-someway over things and finding the way out often feels challenging even though all we really have to do is just let go of it… that simple, but sometimes we need assistance getting into that letting go mode… I am pure 100% example and proud of it. I hear and see angels speak daily now and it is wonderful. 100% wonderful thanks to discovering all the ways I can get my mind to blank out, this includes meditation and yes sometimes cannibus.


Why do we need to meditate? Why do we need to be quiet and gain a sense of peace? Well, very simply Sh++ happens. But again, another antonym coming your way….  Sh++ is the darkness eventually moving to lightness so if you can hang in there and muster up some nice smelling essential oils to mask the smell of sh++ then you might be in good hands. If you can go and be quiet and sleep and rejuvenate and gain a new perspective then sh++ can change. If you can know and believe that tomorrow really is a new day and life goes on then you will be in good hands with yourself, even in your own sh++. I became ONE with the angels years ago and it really is a high, a new high that seems surreal just like death sometimes. When I speak of angels I am also talking about spirit. Anything that is connected with “Source”, “God”, “Kharma” , etc are all the same to me. I believe we are all in this together and we all came up with our own ways to talk about it and relate to it. The  idea that we are all energy and connected to each other.


I could really go on and on and on and on and bore the sh++ out of you… well maybe I should? :) Point is,  when things get tough, light up the chronic and let the angels speak. This is SO metaphoric I can’t even stand it. Chronic as in let the darkness shift you to the lightness. Chronic as in get OFF your disease and let your body heal. Chronic as in we all have something that can serve as a vice to chill out and be at peace. Angels as in the connection we have amongst each other. Angels as in let the light shine down and let us see and hear what is reality. Angels as in let our human ways subside momentarily so we can see and hear the goodness that is life. Angels as in let us be quiet so we can gain clarity on who and what we are in this lifetime.


I write this blog in honor of Pat, my stepmother. I was lucky enough to have 2 moms in this lifetime. They both have passed within the last 8 weeks of each other. I am beside myself. They both had chronic diseases. Pat passed away from congestive heart disease and my mom passed away of ovarian cancer. Pat was a 2nd mom, never the stereotypical stepmom. She aided me in many ways that my mom did not know how.  She was a “mom” that balanced me out from the inside out in many ways. She was always a beacon of light and cheer and fun. She has now become this icing on my own personal life cake that is formulating the human being that I have always been so fearful to let out. Pat’s passing has now lead me to even more unfamiliar territory in life. That darkness that eventually turns to light. So for now I light up the chronic and let the angels speak so I can get by day by day.

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