From the heart...

I don't even know where to start except by saying I am in a place of peace and quiet and calm and zen and good vibration. I have a strong desire for sunshine and yellow and happy feelings. I drive around Chicago getting my matcha green tea almond milk late with double matcha scoops at whole foods EVERY DAY and I feel a sense of complete bliss when i take that first sip. I walk into Depaul University and greet my students with a smile and laugh and they smile and laugh back when swear words chant from the rap songs during our workout so we all laugh when lil wayne says the word pussy or bitch or hoe or dj girltalk plays how the girls drop it low and shake that ass... it's pretty comical actually. No one is offended and we just go about our day.

I have been to 2 funerals and have been consistently around people with cancer, heart disease, and strokes this past month and ya know what... it is still ok. I am still ok. I cannot believe that in the blink of an eye I can be knee deep in sadness and then I can shift my mood to OKness. I ride to my band shows on the weekend and have my whole process of "getting right" with myself before I even enter the venue. I have lots of chats with myself and ya know what... I am pretty conversational and loving. 

I am most proud that I have had the patience to "grow my eyebrows" back. Peep them in this pic to the left. I am not bragging, I just cannot believe that I got wrapped up into tweezing and waxing them for the past 25 years and they got really really short and I was getting a bit self-conscious about them. I had a lady tell me to get them tattooed on so they were not so short.... SOOOOOO glad I did not listen to her... AND I cannot even believe that I contemplated doing that!!! Just another example of letting be what it is naturally and believing that all is ok and going just fabulously. Meanwhile I am saving $20 on eyebrow waxes.

The main point here is that I have had many good feelings and LESS bad feelings and it has been wonderful. It is just proof that what I have been doing is WORKING! This whole emotional journey has been a doozy but it is pretty fascinating to see the laws of the universe and the laws of attraction at work.  The idea of going towards the happy feelings and not putting energy and thought towards what does not feel too good has been working tremendously.  Before I was over-focusing on what was not working and thinking I had to fix, do better, be better, learn, grow and change to get things done and get things in a better place. I was TOTALLY wrong. I could not have been MORE wrong.  I know it seems like if something is not good you want to figure out how to fix it right? EHHHHH! (loud annoying buzzer sound effect) Turns out you need to deflect yourself from the situation and turn it on something that is going well and eventually the other will work itself out. Holy Cow!  I really want to keep riding this wave to the best of my ability because it has helped me create a life that is much more enjoyable.

Ha ha! Gettin' my mojo back one day at a time. Just call me PRO- FESS- OR! :)

Thanks for reading.  

​xo Tami

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