I am always trying to re-train my brain so this seemed like a really good idea. This way I would see and remember it daily! I still LOVE this tattoo. I think #6 will also involve words. Words are powerful and visualization is powerful. Together, you know, even more powerful! Who knew tattoo's could be so powerful! :) I remember I got this in early May right before Mothers Day. I wore a long sleeve shirt for Mother's Day so my mom wouldn't see it and I kept adjusting my arm so my sleeve stayed covering my new tattoo. I knew she wouldn't like it but now that she knows there is meaning behind it, maybe it's not so bad? :)
The 2nd thing that happened was this scenario... I was always looking to do everything with a purpose. Especially music or business or anything money related. I am a self-proclaimed dabbler in producing my own original music projects, I always think large and get really overwhelmed. I reach out to others with the intention of producing this musical/artistic idea and it will get somewhat accomplished. I WAS thinking about my endeavors according to the world of business and money and NOT from the heart or just doing it cuz it felt good on, ya know. One night I was out with my boyfriend at a friends going away party. I was in one of those thinker moods. One of our musician friends said, "whatever happened to the days of just doing music just because". I took this to heart as if he was specifically speaking about me ( so vein of me) and was devastated that I thought I had been doing this all along and that was part of my downfall. I was asking musicians/artists to participate in something that was not genuinely 100% from the heart or with Love.......
The 3rd thing that happened... I started to meditate. I started learning about the power of silence and quietness of the brain. The power of thought and where our thoughts can go and why. We create our whole life with THOUGHT. Isn't that so? Think about it, what we think is what rules our world. Imagine what would happen if you simply changed your thoughts. It could be as easy as thinking positively and catching yourself when you have a negative thought or emotion and letting it dissolve only to put the new spin on your thought that provokes that best outcome for you! Our most powerful tool, the brain. Thoughts can go wild and you can drive yourself insane and unhappy OR you can get quiet, connect with you and life, and be happy. Gee, which one should i pick? :) I now meditate every morning. Just like exercise, just like healthy food, meditation requires a daily dose too. Today's world has attacked our brains with so much and we all live in brain-chaos. It's absolute craziness. Meditation has helped me personally create an internal peace that I have not felt since childhood.
The 4th thing that happened... the reason you are all reading this blog... getting diagnosed with breast cancer, choosing to heal naturally, and choosing to share this journey in hopes to help others. Along with the other 100 things that this journey is teaching me and letting me experience, my perception and level of understanding the acts of Giving and Receiving have evolved deeply. They are on my TOP 5 list of what I have gained through this whole experience to date. I now look at life as my life's work. I am here simply to give myself. The experiences and journeys of life are what LIVING life is really about. As overwhelming as Cancer is and must seem, I have gained a whole new world, a new perspective, and a new approach. Finally, something that money cannot buy. I think I kinda feel like a tree-hugger right now. :) ( no offense if you like to hug trees, i do)
What does all this have to do with HELP? It's the beautiful evolution of Love, Peace, Giving and Receiving. When fully realized, it is perfection. There is no need for help or feeling like you should help, can't or can help or didn't help. If you automatically live with love, peace, giving and receiving in your life you will NEVER have to act like a martyr ever again. Help can simply go back to the simple task of just helping out, just because. You pulled over to help that woman with her flat tire, you shoveled your neighbors sidewalk after the snowstorm, you bought dinner for the guy you see every day shaking the change cup, and so on....
I am writing this specific blog because I have been wondering where my journey is taking me. I have realized that this website I started is the birth of what grows inside of my heart and soul. It is a culmination of me and what I have to give. It just so happens to be packaged with words and a logo and some inspirational printed gear right now. It's bigger than me and bigger than what I will ever be able to understand or explain. Just like me, it will take shape over time. I am happy to know that I am getting better at living life and at a higher level of consciousness which will in turn create the actions, products, creations, and atmosphere that I call aFlyGirl. It's a beautiful circle of Giving and Receiving. It is my peace and I do it with Love.
I had just finished a 7-day online course called Inner Engineering by a guy name Sadghuru. To my surprise, he had the same message as another guy named Markus Rothkranz. I have been reading tons of books, listening to audio books, watching videos, and reading. These 2 guys have a great message and is just what i needed at this moment in time. Take a look at them (in the pictures below) and if you find yourself judging, try to stop. I am telling you, they are BOTH really out-of-the box from what I know and they are super awesome! This is not about religion, it is about your life and how you live it and what you choose to believe. Not about the labels we put on your god, my god, their goddesses, your jesus, my astrology, your prayers, my meditation, etc. It is just about the simple act of BEING. My new motto... "Breath.Believe.Be." It's purrfect! Isn't everyone searching for happiness? Of course. Who wants to feel like crap? NOBODY! Everyone is continually searching for that happiness. It is right in front of us, as I am learning. I was restricting my own self with my own ideals and thoughts. Sure there are always rules and regulations, but you can still be free with your own thoughts and how you choose to live and what you choose to think and believe.
These 2 guys could not be any more polar opposites and LOOK totally different than each other, but YES they deliver the SAME message. I am not saying go read all their books and soak up their message. You will search for what you want and need in your own time. It is not for me to push it on you. I am just telling you about a very vivid example and experience I am having with letting go and dealing with our egos, thoughts, emotions, our physical body, and our consciousness. As a humanity, a family, we have become so addicted to being UN-conscious day to day, same rig-a-ma-roll, same electronics, same food, same small group of people, same daily routine. Perhaps if we just think of adding some spice AND like on Halloween when you buy a pumpkin and carve it, what do we do, we create our own vision of what the pumpkin should look like, right? That's all we have to do with ourselves! It's fantastic!
So I left on my road trip and passed some big-ass billboards that were advertising, zip-lining, caves, ropes, dirt bikes and it looked REALLY fun! I thought, I have to go. So , I did. I stayed in Louisville and ventured to this place. http://www.louisvillemegacavern.com/. If you like to be physically active like i do and/or if you have kids, this place is great AND it is less than 5hrs from Chicago AND there are cheap hotels you can stay at by the airport. Besides the FUN factor, I have been working on conquering my fears. Any time you try something NEW, I think we all get that weird feeling in our gut, right? Our ego is saying no don't do it, i feel uncomfortable, but your spirit says, go for it! I was tormented all weekends by these 2 thoughts/feelings. I know repetition is good when you are trying to change something, so I kept ignoring my ego that was telling me no, and went with my rah-rah- cheerleader spirt that said yes! AND, I am happy to report, I feel great! I tried to capture my zip-lining for you, the video is dark, but you can imagine. The depths of this cave were huge and you cannot see them but please imagine.