Opening minds and hearts to Hope and Inspiring Change to Lead a Creative Life!
I’ve been feeling lighter, kinda floaty feeling, sometimes even light-headed. I wondered if something was wrong. I have some appointments coming up and perhaps I am focused on what the outcome could be. I still feel myself straying a bit from new Tami thoughts and perceptions and beliefs and encountering thoughts of the old but then asking myself why am I going back to those ideas. I guess it’s a part of really growing into your own and standing up tall to what you are and what you beez! I see many pictures that represent growth and change and expansion. I still have to pump myself up each week in some capacity to keep going and keep expanding and keep myself enjoying the journey to the manifestations of what I really want and desire. I think I am feeling the “slow down” and “in the momentness” that was missing all these years. That is my only explanation on how I am FEELING these days.
Emotions and Feelings are new discoveries and new ways of being and experiencing life for me. If you are just catching up with my #cancerjourney then please note that the mind-body-soul connection was a real struggle for me all these years and contributed to my poor health. This has been the bulk of my transformation and self healing. I am winds beyond where I was and winds just out there floating around now. It’s amazing how time, choices, retraining the brain, and directing your energies can make such a huge impact on ones life. On my worst days I find myself meditating and sleeping more. On my best days I have the best interactions with people and displays of who I really am from the inside out. I can walk outside and sometimes almost feel levitational and just more or less a spec on this earth floating around. I can be on stage and feel like a beam of light that is just bouncing around enjoying the atmosphere. I can be at home and feel comforted and sometimes alone and yet feel all encompassed by the universe. I grab my angel coin and remember that the universe got my back. I remember that we are all connected and part of the same energy source and realize I am in the comforts of a home I bought and essentially built for myself based on what I need and want to keep me expanding in this lifetime. I remember that this is my reality and I can create whatever I want.
I have always enjoyed being outside BUT this is more like I just enjoy seeing mother nature and it’s beauty. I feel appreciative, grateful, in awe, like a tiny spec, at ease, love, and special all in the same moment. I travel through each day wondering what I will encounter. I think about what I want and what feels good and hope that I am vibrating that same notion and hope that is what I am attracting and vibrating all in the same note. When I encounter certain moments before I meet with a person at the gym or have to be on stage I find myself visualizing and asking and dreaming and creating a fast forward moment that feels good and will be positive and light bearing and easy and free. I hear myself saying the best words and the best pitch and energy that encapsulates what I think is best in that moment in time. THEN I think in that moment right before it’s “to happen” that the universe got my back and everything is okay and whatever happens is ok and is meant to be for now. I actually can see the situation ahead of time and to date if I am having an extra connected day it actually turns out to be what I projected ahead of time. It’s amazing. I think this is part of law of attraction and HOW we can create our own life. I might be getting to whacky for some, but this is what is going on these days OR I am just going crazy. Not sure. I guess both options are possibilities. Either way, if I am crazy, I like being crazy more than what life was before cancer. Thanks Life. Thanks Universe. Thanks Source. Thanks Friends. Thanks Family. Thanks Mother Nature. Thanks to who I have the possibility and capability of being.
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As always, thanks for reading and listening.
Tami Herbst xo