cancer... yes i am being judgemental

Rated R!....      Fuck!        This WORD sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
As I travel the breast cancer route, i am finding there are many negative connotations associated with just the word cancer. I would like to take a stance and say....  it's just a WORD people!!!!
As I dissect and digest and marinate and soak in ALL that is cancer, I am startling awakened to the idea that  a lot of it is in our MINDS....!!! O M G !!!!!  

Yes, I am still on my journey to Cancer recovery, BUT, perhaps it's NOT what we all have built it up to be?  Cancer does not mean death. Cancer does not mean life has to suck. Cancer does not mean you have to put even more chemicals & toxins in your body. Cancer does NOT mean you HAVE to have SURGERY, RADIATION, DRUGS, & CHEMOTHERAPY.

I know I will have some backlash on this blog and I know that I am taking a pretty harsh stance. BUT i  think to say that I need to wack off my boobs and inject chemicals into my body to get RID OF CANCER is an even HARSHER statement.
​So you be the judge.

I know that Fitness and Food can act as a CATALYST and HEALING agent on many levels. I know that  Cancer means my immune system is down. I know that all the molecules and atoms that make up my body NOW are ever-changing and I am turning into a different molecular makeup year after year. I know Cancer CELLS can be REVERSED. YES PEOPLE. Do some research. I KNOW WHAT can CAUSE cancer and (smoke, fragrance, chemicals, genetically modified foods, non-organic foods, synthetic fabrics, etc)  ADD to spreading Cancer and getting Cancer.  BELIEVE it or NOT, Genetics, is low on the list.

So why don't I have the RIGHT to DEMAND all-natural, all-organic products & services. Why has society even come to a place where it is NOT the norm? WHY are most products harmful? People, this is my next venture. An ALL-ORGANIC place where we can comfortably buy and sell products that are natural and we no longer have to SEARCH what is HEALTHY for us. Sigh............................

The Personal Trainer and Nutritionist is coming out in me now.... YES I am being judgemental....  I see SO many people that eat like crap and do not lead a physically active life.  NO- I do NOT know ANY people that lead totally unhealthy lives and have NEVER gotten sick. If you know any, let me know, let's do a science project and try to figure out why? Perhaps that is the difference between living until 100yrs old rather than 75yrs old? Perhaps some people only want to live until 80? Ok. I get it. I really do. I personally don't know if I WANT to live past 85, BUT that's just me.  Perhaps I will change my mind.

WE have made CANCER into a BEAST when really it is a LEARNING LESSON or a GROWTH period in our LIVES, or a THING that has shown up in YOUR life and the LIVES AROUND YOU to SHOW you the LIGHT. At least that is what I believe. I am NOT a victim of a disease BUT an ADVOCATE for HAPPY & HEALTHY living. I learn the hard way and God said HERE! Try this one on Tami!  I said, oh yeah? Try me! Time to buck up and give all that I am and all that I have. AND this is what I have done.

CANCER does not define me and I do not need a pouty face or frowny sad face to believe that you feel sorry or have empathy. I know that sounds brash and yes it is.  BUT I would rather someone read my stories and feel empowered and inspired rather than sad, depressed, a victim, woe is me, & life sucks. WE are WHAT we create and WHAT we put out into the world.  Yes we will have hard times and need to get through the emotions of LIFE. I am NOT saying SUPPRESS your FEELINGS. I am saying, have your feeling, get it out, and move on buckaroo. ​

SO, in this lifetime, I get tattoos to remind me about HOW to live. Go ahead. Disagree. Say oh! Why do you have those! I will tell you. They are a permanent reminder on some REALLY VALID points of LIFE. Does Everyone need these? No. But I do! My mom said she didn't disagree with the first one I got on my wrist SO I got another one! Thanks mom! Just remember you approved so you are to blame now! :) j/k. I know that I am fully responsible for my own self and my own actions. So if you find yourself in a state of denial...  you best take heed, yes in deed! You cannot change ANYTHING but yourself in this world except yourself and IF you ever want to CHANGE the world or wonder what you have to do to make a difference you HAVE to take a look at yourself first! I learned this long ago and believe me it is NOT fun. You have to do a lot of eating shit and eating crow and kicking yourself in your own butt. Yes we ALL have learning to do BUT it does NOT mean that you suck! It means you ARE learning! so CONGRATS! I love you! mean it!

​xo- Tami